© By Brittney Cormier

It is dark in this place
Once filled with hopes and dreams
It is now only hatred and pain
I am on my own side
Everyone else stays in the light
They are filled with happiness
While I am filled with anything but that
No one is with me
No one will ever be
They are happy, I am not
They will never understand me
Nor will they ever wish to
I can not blame them
I would also want to remain happy
But I have forgotten how
I don’t know how to go back to the sunshine
I only know rain and night now
I watch the moon
It is my only friend
It understands and listens
Though it never talks to me
It helps me throughout my life
It is my last light
My last light of hope, dream, and my one love
And that shall never die out

© By Ethan Pandolfi

I float in a pool of darkness
Cold presses in on me
I am alone
Floating aimlessly
I reach for sparks of hope
But rather than warm
They only burn

I ache with sorrow
I hunger to leave
To escape
To leave this prison
I crave to be free
To be heard
To be loved

TRUEBLOOD

Omg, I have heard so much about this sh0w, as I posted my room mate watches it but everytime he starts to tell whats going on and I get into it, the damn show starts and he is lost in it and wont tell me whats going on next! I NEED DETAILS! Im starting to get hooked, but I am sorta lost! HELP I know there are fans out there! SOMEONE UPDATE ME PLEASE!

Then the other day he tells me they drink (on the show) a drink called “true blood”. Of course those of you that watch the show will know about this. Well, he tells me that they here in the USA> are going to be coming out with the SAME drink, uh, not with the blood of course!

Now I am real intrigued!

I have to know more about this show! Anyone who can fill me in more PLEASE DO! By the time the show comes on I’m asking so many questions- I’m pissing off my room-mate and he is “shhhhh”(ing) me.  Grrrrrrrr.

With all due credit

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Head v Heart

© By Sammy Leaver

Once again I’m in this tough dilemma,
Where I just don’t know what to do.
My heads telling me no and to just let it go,
But my hearts got too much love for you.

But then again my heads giving me visions,
Visions of us being an item,
Visions of us being happy,
And me being there when you are frightened.

So for me to say I like you,
Would be just a drop in the ocean.
And to chose between head or heart,
It looks like they both win.

Thanks for saying the words for people that cant!

You are this to me

© By Ashley Curtid

You’re the thought that starts each morning
the conclusion to my day.
You are all in I do
and everything I say.

You’re the smile on my face
the twinkle in my eye.
The warmth inside my heart
and the fullness in my life.

You’re the hand laced im mine,
and the coat upon my back.
My friend, my love
my shoulder to lean on.

You’re my silly, mature, caring
thoughtful, bright and honest guy.
The one who holds me tightly
when I need to cry.

You’re the dimple to my cheek
the ever constant tingle in my soul
The voice that makes me weak
the hapiness of my life.

You are all I’ve ever wanted.
You are all I need
You are all I’ve dreamed of
You are all this to me

Excessories

© By Andrew McKee

I want to know from whence it came
A question all to sly
Derive to find a mean in life,
The query that is “why?”

To ask the past reveals a mask
Of failure known to man
To learn from fault that turns the salt
To mild and tasteless sand

We move ahead, above instead
Into the depths of space
Adapt terrain to our domain
We are the human race

Let’s just say when I was young and foolish I didn’t pay much mind to my credit.  On many (3) to be exact, I had to be bailed out by my family! The third time I was lucky and got money from the government for an accident.

After that I swore I wouldn’t screw it up again, nope my ex did.  So when I started to smell my marriage going down hill I started to take steps to improve it and BOY IT WAS NOT AN EASY ROAD!  It took me a good 6 years to get my score out of the hole to were I could buy a car on my own with no one to help me.

Then after that I got divorced, now mind you the divorce didn’t hurt me.  But the economy did. I have a high score; it’s in the high 700′s.  Pretty good I would say.  So when I moved I needed a new sofa- I went to apply for credit and was denied! I was a little shocked and called my security place and said something is up. I want my reports. They agreed and TRIED to send them. OF course the IDIOT credit burrows wouldn’t send them because A. I had a new address (uh DUHHHHHHHHHHH) and B. they claimed I already got them!

Ok something is up right? SO I call again! This time they (my agent) paid for them, same song and dance- still no report!

Oh but it gets better!  I get ONE! That’s IT ONE! Everything looks clean, so why am I being denied all over the place, but wait it gets better!  Then a few days ago I get another letter, one of my card companies that I pay FAITHFULY never late, had for years is jacking up my APR to get this 33% “based in part to what EVER is on my report??????????????

But NOBODY WILL TELL ME what’s on my damn REPORT! This is all insane!

How can these companies mess with your life, when you have done nothing wrong??????????  It’s a joke.  And credit reports affect your JOBS, your insurance, everything!

This is CRAZY!

Why can’t they stand to see a person happy? Or here is a good one, if a person is quite and sticks to themselves; OH NO, they MUST be talked about because they MUST be hiding something!

The funny thing is I have girls of all ages, one is 21 and one is in Jr. High. It’s so funny because I hear the same thing I go through from them!  I try to tell them “look Jr. High is just a testing ground for the “real world”. Its sink or swim kids. Get a tough skin.

My mom used to tell me “I can play any game as long as I know the rules” Its sooo true. The problem is the rules these woman play by change by the moment!

If anyone has any ideas- let me know because I swear I am a friggen drama magnet!  I try to keep to myself but the crap seems to find me!

I’m in a relationship, and my soon to be husbands best friend just happens to be a woman.  Now mind you they have been friends since kids. I don’t have any issues with this. I have allot of guy friends. Well she starts winning that I am going to break up their friendship. So I step in and write her this long ass letter on MySpace and try to put her mind at ease.

Well so she texts me…. Kind of starts telling me that she is protective of him, that’s good. Tells me that I shouldn’t jump into anything.  I take that as cool, she is looking out for him… but it was a little too odd. But I am a big girl I can handle myself.  I told him this and said she is just being protective. BOY WAS I DEAD WRONG!

Turns out that she wants him for MORE then a friend. So much for being Miss nice girl. Like I said the rules change every damn time I turn around…… and the damn drama just gets worse!

Now she just keeps texting me getting prissy with me, I’m always pulled into the middle….

But thank god he told her flat out that’s it, “she (me) went above and beyond the call; if you want more too bad!”

But why do I still feel like I broke up a friendship, even though I know I didn’t?  Grrr, I hate drama!

A Grandmother’s Love

She sat in the hospital,
For what seemed like forever.
When her daughter said “go home,”
Nan said “never.”

From that day on,
Nan was always there,
Day after day,
Secrets they’d share.

Ever since they can remember,
Wednesday was their day,
She’d say to her Nan,
“Pick me up at the bus stop, okay?”

Nan waited at the park,
The bus arrived at three.
Her granddaughter looked out the window,
Excited for who she would see.

There Nan was,
To ask about her day.
So she began
While Nan listened to what she had to say.

Together, they’d ride,
Along in the car,
Asking “Would you like to
Swing on a star?”

They would sing the lyrics,
To their favorite song.
Only stopping to laugh,
After they sang it wrong.

Laugh after laugh,
Tear after tear.
She was there for her,
For yet another year.

When her heart got broken,
She would cry on Nan’s shoulder,
Nan said the lessons she taught her,
She would understand when she’s older.

Throughout the years,
Time went fast,
But they still have the memories,
Because memories last.

And now she knows
That grandmothers must be from up above,
And that nothing is stronger
Than a grandmother’s love.